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WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I managed to get back down to 136!!! Yay! Sad that I am happy about such a high weight I know but I will be skinny one of these days... I just hope it sticks this time. I was 136.5 last Friday and then binged and went back up to 138. Its taken me 4 days to get back here!! I ended up breaking my plan last night. [ #)&$%$*((& IT! <-- stomping around in an angry temper fit ] I caved under pressure and ate a Lean Cuisine meal. It was 190 cals and I also ate a bite of crab salad (mmmm!) but I purged it back up. Then, just because I hadn't had a #2 in almost a week I did an enema. I have to stop doing those things. I know they are bad for you but I can't go to the bathroom these days! Anyway, I was 137 yesterday so I really only lost 1 pound so maybe it will stick if I eat just cabbage today. I will probably have to eat something more tonight as I have school late and my husband will be home before me. Hence, he will know that I haven't eaten dinner and he will get mad if I eat only cabbage. But I can eat a chicken patty for 100 cals and it will appease him. Ever since he caught me purging he has been a little weird and snoopy... sigh... The hassles of being a disgusting pig that starves and pukes daily... :-/