2003-04-15 - 8:51 p.m.
Most Recent Entries Sorry I haven't been updating. Work hasn't been going real well and to compensate the binging has gotten out of control. I have gained a LOT of weight... Like 10lbs in a month! My size 5s don't fit and even my 6s are getting tight! I have to do something about it. I can't go on this way. I am going to try to lose this weight healthy. So here is my new plan. Weigh on Fridays only. Eat three meals a day, no more starving and binging. No throwing up. Two pounds a week only. Exercise only on days that I don't work (I work 12 1/2 hour days and am in constant motion - really, I literally don't sit down for the whole 12 1/2 hours - so I am exhausted by the time I get home) So that's the plan. I do need to lose about 12 more lbs but I need to do it right. And then stop after 12lbs. I have been doing ok with this plan for about a week and so far have lost 5 of the 10 I gained. And I feel good. I feel in control again. Today I ate: 1/2 cup of fruit for breakfast 2tbl of peanut butter and a hamburger bun for lunch 3oz of steak and a bowl of spinach (no butter)for dinner. Cross your fingers that this works for me. I am too old for this, am the main money maker in my house and have 4 little kids that need me to be healthy. And alive. If I let this eating disorder or the depression get me I won't be here much longer...
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A pound a day - 2006-04-08
Back in black - well in fat anyway - 2006-04-05
Too stupid for my own good - 2004-10-27
The debate - 2004-10-27
To lie or not to lie, that is the question - 2004-10-26