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I'm looking for work, had an interview today in fact, I've been smoking and puking again. I gained half of the weight I lost in July and August back and I am a COW.... So I haven't eaten in two days. I didn't start out planning to fast, it just happened. So we'll see how long I last. There are 30 days in September so I would like to make it the whole month with no solids and just a bit of juice when I need it (to get rid of the brain fog) since I am hopefully going back to work this month... Meds are stable, could get a little more stable, going to ask to raise the Risperidal a bit and see if it zaps a bit more of my OCD... Wow, what a boring diary... Anyway, 1st day of a month, havent eaten in 2 days so I guess I'm technically on day 3 of my fast... My goal for september, to lose 30lbs. Maybe when I get halfway there, I'll tell you what that is. Just trust me, I'm fat. VERY fat. After I lose 30lbs I'll go into "stasis". I promise. Recovery isn't something I can face right now so....