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Long time no post. Sorry. Just posting now to let you know I'm still alive and kicking. I had a bad spell when I stopped writing. I stopped writing becuase I stopped eating. for about a month. Lost over 20lbs. Down to 121ish. But my heart hurt and I saw the actual shrink. I was hardly alive. My heart and electrolytes were a wreck. So I ate my way back to 156. Shrink put me on the scale and I about keeled over. Said don't look. yah right. The scale is my god, my ruler, my destruction, it determines my day, my life, my worth...... So you know what I did, same old story.... You all know what I do if you've read any of my shit. Now? Now I'm 112. sssshhh. Its a secret though. A new low in over a decade. Wonder if there will be another gaining chapter or this is it? Will I shrink into nothing? See the shrink Monday. Wonder how it will go.... H