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I looked in the mirror at myself when I went pee. I saw my stomach. It's SO fat and gross. I can't believe I am so fat and I can't believe I have to wait to lose it. I hate how I look. I feel like never putting anything on but sweats again until I get back to 120. But if I show up at my shrinks office in sweats I think she will make me get on the scale. I can refuse can't I? Anyway, I just can't believe how fat and gross I am. I look obese! sigh.... Going to take my meds and go to bed. Maybe I'll get on the scale tomorrow. Maybe.